Wedding Stress

Quite honestly, now that I am engaged, all I can think about is the wedding. Planning, preparing, calculating, hoping. One, because I am anal and have to have everything under control every single minute of my life. And two, because it's ridiculous how hard someone has to work in order to please every other single person, but themselves on their own wedding day. The reception has to look GOOD to everyone else. The food has to be EXCELLENT because people are buying you gifts. And the cake has to be AMAZING so people talk about it long after your wedding is over. It's insane. And as much as I've waited in anticipation for the day I could plan my dream wedding, pick out my white dress, and marry the man of my dreams... right now, I could really care less about anything but my fiance and the bond we will share once our big day comes. The spending concern and the stress that I am feeling right now, could give any normal, healthy person an ulcer. And that's not meant to be funny at all. I just think it's sad that a ceremony and a celebration that is meant to bind two people by God, has turned into something so materialistic. It's like Christmas. The real reason for the season or the real reason for the day, has been lost.